Reality

I have had a crazy week! We have been busy swimming and playing and cleaning. Obviously you can tell where my priorities are lol. It has been sort of a rough week on me. Doing my First Place Bible Study is slapping my face making me wake up to a few truths. These truths are hard to face but I hope will help me overcome my self.

Things I am facing:

• You can't move forward until you let go of the past.
• Forgiveness is key!
• Hope without action is fairly pointless. That includes prayer! God will help those that help themselves! So all of these years hoping and praying for a bikini body has been a waste of energy since I haven't done anything to achieve it!

It is tough remembering that I have control over my destiny. If I want something I have to go for it. I can't sit and wait for it to come to me. That goes for everything in my life not just my weight. I also don't think about the fact that God can be pleased or displeased by all of our actions or lack thereof. He says in one verse we studied I think in Mathew "Well done, my good and faithful servant...!" I want him to praise me and yet a lot of time I don't really go that extra mile so that he will. That is evident in most things I do, I am afraid. I tend to just do enough or sometimes even fail at doing that much. Or so it seems to me.

I know that the only way to change my life is to just DO IT! I am committing to do just that. It may not be an easy task to take on but "I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me!"

I think that I need to purge myself so to speak to get on with it. I will have more on this later!