Busy, Busy, Busy

The end of last week we finished Anna's swimming lessons, picked up a guy coming home from Iraq, spent time with friends, cleaned house and stayed extremely busy. I have posted here and there but let me recap for you guys.

Swimming lessons ~ Yay we are done lol. Anna did great throughout the process. I am not sure how much more she learned going there but hey she can swim underwater even better (although she still can't pop up to breathe) and she is more comfortable trying to float even though she can't do it just yet. She enjoyed her teacher and her classmates and even asked if we were going to see Megan today.

Picking up Jason ~ It has been great having Jason home again. We went to dinner with him Thursday night and he came and hung out with us Saturday afternoon. He is trying to win Anna's affections again. She is holding out although she is doing better. She didn't hide from him Sunday at church.

Hanging out with friends ~ That is one of my favorite things to do. We had a "party" with Allie after swimming lessons ended. It was fun we had tacos and cupcakes and the girls played hard! They have so much fun together! It is great talking to Shanda too. If I had looked around the church I would have really thought we would be least likely to be friends. She is just so quiet and well I am not lol. I love hanging out and talking with her though. She is quickly turning into a very dear friend. We also had another dear friend over to go swimming. Denise and her two boys. We always enjoy having them over because Anna thinks her youngest (a 10 year old) is the bees knees. You know the equivalent of Patrick Swayze or Tom Cruise in my younger years.

Cleaning house ~ Yuck, I hate this lol. We are preparing for Anna's party and I have a lot left to do. However, I did declutter my living room and put most of Anna's toys in her room. My living room looks so much better for it! I also cleaned behind tables and chairs etc. You know the deep kind of cleaning. I also started on the kitchen although there is more to do in there. I plan to do a little in the house and the yard daily so that everything will be as close to perfect for Anna's party as I can get it.

So this week is going to be a lot of prep work for her party and not as much fun as usual. Although ya'll know that I will squeeze it in there somewhere! So what are ya'll doing this week? I am still looking for great birthday ideas if anyone would like to share!!!

Help me!

Sorry I have been MIA for a while. I have been struggling through issues. I haven't wanted to blog I have just wanted to BE, ya know. Here it goes I am going to bare some of my issues.

My relationship with my parents suck! Big time!!! I haven't talked to my mother in I don't know how long. My Dad is always pulled in between us so he only calls sporadically mainly when he is at work. We have a long history of issues that I don't even want to talk about. Lets just say it started about 14 years ago and it has slowly progressed into this mess. God has been working on my heart lately. Between my Bible study, Sunday School and the preachers sermon I have been bombarded with the need to let bygones be bygones and either move forward or let go. This is hard for me because for years I tried to be the bigger person and make nice just to get smacked down. You know the saying "once bitten, twice shy" well, I am beyond that. I am afraid of the result if I try to move forward. I miss having parents. I miss talking about my childhood. I miss not being able to share my daughter with them. I often wonder what it must feel like to have a great relationship with your parents. Where you can laugh about silly things and cry on their shoulder when you are hurting. I am not sure how to start mending the fence with my parents. How to move forward so that Anna can have 2 sets of grandparents. I don't want to rehash the past, I just want to move forward. I just want to pretend that the past 14 years weren't so miserable for us lol. So do you guys have any words of wisdom? I am thinking I will start with an email just to test the waters. Tell me what you think?

Just so you don't leave my blog all bummed and depressed look at my beautiful girl swimming. She is doing great. I was worried about how she would do this morning with a long weekend between seeing Megan but she did great. She wanted to participate and made sure she wasn't skipped over. Thank you for the words of encouragement offered up last week!!!

A Major Break Through

Today has been a beautiful day!!! Anna had a major break through with her swimming lessons. As funny as it sounds because of that I felt for a moment like a wonderful mom lol. I mean obviously I am doing something right if she warmed up to it lol. Ugh I know I can't claim any part of her getting through this at least for a day but boy was it a wonderful morning. We got there early and we took her baby doll. She wanted to get in the water almost right away so I told her that she and the baby could swim on the steps. I sat right there prepared to get totally wet if I had too. She stayed on the steps. She only went off once and that was to grab the side wall. When the teacher got there I decided that I wasn't going to go on the stairs unless I had too because quite frankly it was hot up there lol. We started with it not going in the right direction so I told her that I was going to sit on the stairs she told me no. She got back in the water. She got out again when they wanted her to swim. I told her if she didn't get in and participate we weren't going to play on the playground. She got in the water faster than I have ever seen her. After that she did great. She even went off on her knee board a few times without Megan. I just can't even tell you all how proud I am of my baby girl!!! Hopefully tomorrow will be just as successful! Of course the weather man is calling for rain so the class might be rescheduled for Friday.

What a morning!

Swimming lessons, ugh, what can I say. They were better than I thought they would be but worse than I hoped lol. That is about it. Anna cried and wouldn't get in the water without me. The only thing I could do was leave her there to do it without me to distract her. After I walked off she wasn't happy but she started to cooperate. She did what she was asked to do and she almost had fun lol. She hopefully bonded with her teacher Megan and tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow I am going to pretend to forget something in the car and leave her with Allie's Mommy before the teacher gets there. Maybe if I am not around when it starts it will be easier for her. I am her crutch and there are so many reasons that I like that but then so many reasons that I hate that.

After we left swimming lessons we went to Flying Frogs. My poor baby got stuck, well in her mind she was stuck. She was in one section of it where the piece of maze moves every time you step and I think she thought she was going to fall. I talked her through it and Allie was so sweet to come through and hug her and show her the way out. After that she stayed in the ball pit or the bouncy thing. Poor girl has been traumatized today. She is napping now and we will head off to church around 5 for VBS. Hopefully that will be relatively uneventful for her lol.

Chatter!

I have a jumble of thoughts tonight so I thought I would just put them out here for you all to share in my jumbliness lol!

I finally got a few tomatoes out of my garden this past week. They were so yummy. I have several green ones now so it is only a matter of time before we have lots of tomatoes! You see my picture? Aren't they pretty? They are cherry tomatoes. I planted those for Anna because she likes to be able to bite into them and have the juice shoot out!

We started VBS tonight. We didn't have a lot of children but I am holding out hope for tomorrow. I am on snack duty and I picked out an easy one for the first night. It was an eruptive volcano! Which consists of 1/3 cup of milk, a shot of canned cool whip and coke on top of that. It was in a 9 oz cup. Chris and the kids enjoyed it. Me, well I thought it was kinda yucky lol. Oh well I like to please the little ones so I go with the flow. Tomorrow we are making a spider out of moon pies! That is more up my alley lol.

Tomorrow Anna starts swimming lessons! She is going with a friend so I am hoping it isn't to stressful for her. We have to be there at 8:30 am. It will be exciting!!! She is doing well already so I can't wait to see how much she will learn with real lessons!