Christianity

Well, the weekend has come and gone. It went by way to fast. It was a flurry of activity. Going down town with my hubby and Anna. Meeting friends for dinner. Teaching Sunday School for the first time ever and joining the choir. Anna did great in the nursery woo hoo. My poor hubby spent most of yesterday afternoon and all of today, well after church, doing homework.

Sometimes, when I am at church I feel like such a phoney. I am a Christian I can tell you all about coming to the Lord. It was a very magical moment for me really. I was in our church back home and I believe it was during revival, not sure. I was standing there and I was holding on to the pew in front of me so tight I had white knuckles. Then all of a sudden I realized I was walking down the isle. I don't even remember stepping out. I was 16 I think, maybe 15. OK so my memory isn't clear lol. But it is all there. I began my journey that day.

It has been a good journey for the most part.

I have had my good moments. I was in the hospital with my MIL after she had surgery and her nurse was a girl that had gone to my church. She was a youth and I was a young adult helping the youth. She said she would never ever forget me because when she was ready to make that leap of faith I was there to hold her hand and go with her. I don't really remember that day but it makes me feel good that I had such an impact on her life.

I have had my bad moments. You know the missed chances of sharing your belief with someone. Saying bad words or having bad thoughts. Doing bad things, knowing they are wrong and doing it anyway. These are the things that make me feel like a phoney. These are the things that make me feel unworthy of sharing the Lord. Today our preacher was going over our plan for the church for the next 5 years. He said that we all needed to be above reproach making the best example possible. I know that if someone looked at my life and saw some of the things I have done they would think, humph and she's a Christian? I have screwed up and I have done things I am not proud of. However, I have confessed these things to the Lord and I have begged for forgiveness. I believe that we do need to strive to be in God's image but we need to allow each other to make mistakes. We need to forgive ourselves and each other. We need to expect mistakes but how we handle the mistakes makes the difference. Maybe that is what the preacher was talking about. I mean God knows none of us are perfect, it is impossible to be perfect. So maybe it is how we handle our screw ups, our personal failures that will make us above reproach.

I have held onto anger and bitterness towards my Mother. That is one of my issues. I don't feel like I am really holding onto it much anymore but a part of me does. A part of me feels like it is impossible to get over it. It goes back so far that it just seems to be a part of me. The Bible says to honor your father and mother. I haven't done that for a long time. I honestly don't know that I will ever be able to do that. I will start praying about it though. I can't do it alone but with the Lord's help I can. I have to be willing to really mean it and open my heart to it and let me tell you that is the hard part. I have other issues that I won't go into lol cause, well some things are just private, right? Just say a passing prayer for me if you have a spare second. Thank you!!!

I Can Do All Things Through Christ Who Strengthens Me. ~ Philippians 4:13

Wordless Wednesday!

Tiny Talk Tuesday!

Well, Anna has been full of words this past week. Unfortunately, I forgot to write most of it down. Here is what I can remember

She was out and about with her Yia Yia and Pop Saturday morning. Pop asked her if she needed a clean diaper and she reached her hand down and pulled it back out. Holding her hand up she says "I'm good

Her most popular sentence right now is "where's Maggie"

She learned the word amblance = ambulance

Oh and my personal favorite lol. Pop was watching football sat. pm. She watched it with him with complete interest. Calling fooball! That is how she went to sleep. Last night my hubby was flipping through the channels and he paused on a football game but didn't say anything. Anna and I were in the floor and she calls out fooball! She was delighted to see it again

For more Tiny Talk Tuesday go to NB7!

Buddy is back home!

Well, it has been interesting lol. Buddy did great on the trip to his new home and then settled in fine for a while. Then he decided he wanted to come home and started peeing all over everything. He would pee just an hour after going outside, on rugs, on walls or just on the hardwood floor. Poor Cindy was distraught and didn't know what to do since she has to go back to work and didn't want to wade into her house after 6 hours. So after long thoughts and discussions and don't forget prayers we decided that the only way to handle it was to bring him home. Now we are just wondering if Maggie will make it there without him. She is doing great right now but tomorrow she will be home TOTALLY alone for the first time EVER! So hopefully she will be ok and not to terribly lonely. One side of me feels the universe has shifted back into place now that Buddy is back but a part of me was really excited about a dog free house. Oh well, apparently we are meant to keep Buddy and so we shall. Now a part of me wants Maggie back too. I mean why not since we have Buddy already lol. Oh well, seriously I hope she is happy in her new home and will be a good girl. She is loving all of the attention she is getting and I think that is fabulous! Thank you all for the prayers and please keep dropping one for us here and there as we adjust to all of these changes.

PS. Anna wasn't worried about the puppies before but now that Buddy is home she keeps asking "where's Maggie?".

Doggie Update!

I have talked to Cindy and just received photos too. They are adjusting quite well at her house. They are eating great and sleeping great too. She said they act like they have been there forever. I really do think this was worked out by God! He is an awesome God! I certainly feel much better knowing they are happy. So I will share a few photos and then I have to get ready for church. Hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday!(Above) Buddy & (Below) Maggie look like they are smiling!
Don't they look so peaceful!

It is all said and done.

Buddy and Maggie officially have a new Mommy. Today has been one of the hardest days of my life. I have been crying on and off since I woke up at 6:30 this morning. They seemed to adjust to her pretty quickly. When we loaded them up in her car they seemed to settle right in. She called when they got down the street to let me know that Maggie was sleeping and Buddy had nuzzled her neck but was mostly just watching the road. Enjoying the car ride. Hopefully this means they will enjoy their new home and will just settle right in.


It was so very difficult to watch them get in the car. I couldn't take it at one point and had to just walk away. The feeling of loss was so strong it overwhelmed me. They were waiting for my hubby to come say his final good bye so I ended up going back out there.


OK so I am about to cry again so I am going to go but I wanted to thank you all for keeping us in your prayers. I really do think it helped. I hope everyone enjoys their long weekend.

"D" Day

Well today is my Doom's Day. Or at least it feels like it. My stomach is churning and I can't stop crying. I am being such a baby but I can't help it. Last night I had to go to bed with Anna because she was having a rough night. I woke up this morning and Buddy was laying in there beside the bed. We gate them off in the kitchen and he had barely pushed the gate over to get through. I don't know how he had enough room to get through honestly. I got up and snuggled with him for a while. This is so much harder than I ever imagined and trust me I have a great imagination.

My prayer for today.

Dear God,

Please help Cindy to have a safe trip here and back home. Help her to bond quickly with Buddy and Maggie. Find a way for me to make complete peace with what we are doing today. Explaining to Anna has been difficult and I know she doesn't really "get" it. So please make this an easy transition for her. I pray that you will help Anna have a good day with her Yia Yia and Pop and not feel all of my anxiety and upset. Most importantly, please be with Buddy and Maggie. Help this be a smooth transition for them and help them adjust and grow to love Cindy. Make sure they know that they can be happy there and that I will always love them. Just keep your arms wrapped around all of us through this and make your presence known. Thank you Lord for helping us find the perfect person to take them and just keep reminding me that you are in control!

I love you Lord and I appreciate all that you do in my life!

AMEN!